Ear Connections

 right now i'm sipping on $10 "dark horse" sauvignon blanc from the mart down the block from me. i'm lucky to have a mart down the block from me. two actually.  i'm listening to shadow of your smile, lou rawls version. specifically, lou rawls 1966 live studio version. the one where you can hear the audience in the studio clap and hoot and cheer and tear and whistle. toot toot toottttt ay ay. a teardrop kissed your lips. and so did, IIIIIIIIIIII i'm so tired from writing and introspecting the past few days. i've been staying up, writing in the zone for my med school apps. we literally are just getting started. i'm just writing my activity list right now, it's the first stage of writing. i like all this writing. but it's hella tiring. i only got one or two late night writing app writing sessions in me in a week.  i'm feeling alone. calm. dreading. curious. drowsy.  more wine. more doing nothing. bleh. i'm waiting for my laundry in the gar...

 I'm back on the blog, baby. so apparently there's a difference between Substack and the traditional blog medium. I read one blog post about it five minutes ago so I'm pretty much an expert in SEOs now (that means Search Engine Optimization, morons!).  I want a fresh start. I don't care if I have to write that again two years later. I want to feel like I'm blogging, which means writing just for the shits of it. writing as my contribution to this vast cloud of the internet. I kind of want my writing my now to just go wherever it has to. which doesn't have to be anywhere.  see, i'm working on loving the process rather than focusing just on the destination. it takes hard work to put this into practice.  today, I feel pretty mellow. not overcome with a particular zesty mood, but a mixture of colors on a palette. a little bit of overcast, like the weather when I looked out the window this morning in San Francisco. calm and peace when I walked down the streets of ...